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anonymous, what are your thoughts when you pass by someone?
When I walk by someone I try to find something negative about them and then have an uncontrolled derogatory thought train.
Example:
>Pass by an overweight woman
"f**king fat wh**re jesus christ f**king die stupid sh*t"
>Pass by a guy texting on his cell phone
"braindead retard can't get off his phone for one second f**king hipster bitch f**k"
I've been doing this since as long as I can remember, and like I said it's not intentional. Does this happen to anyone else?

"I'd hit it"
"Goddamn fatass, why don't you have any self-control? How can you stand to be so fat? Go run until you die jesus christ."
"That guy had a cool ____"

You got problems brah.

anonymous, what are your thoughts when you pass by someone?
When I walk by someone I try to find something negative about them and then have an uncontrolled derogatory thought train.
Example:
>Pass by an overweight woman
"f**king fat wh**re jesus christ f**king die stupid sh*t"
>Pass by a guy texting on his cell phone
"braindead retard can't get off his phone for one second f**king hipster bitch f**k"
I've been doing this since as long as I can remember, and like I said it's not intentional. Does this happen to anyone else?

>Pass by a guy texting on his cell phone
>"braindead retard can't get off his phone for one second f**king hipster bitch f**k"
Did you mean: "Damn I wish I had some actual friends to text, but I don't so I'll complain to anonymous about it. They're my friends, right?"

"I'd hit it"
"Goddamn fatass, why don't you have any self-control? How can you stand to be so fat? Go run until you die jesus christ."
"That guy had a cool ____"

anonymous, what are your thoughts when you pass by someone?
When I walk by someone I try to find something negative about them and then have an uncontrolled derogatory thought train.
Example:
>Pass by an overweight woman
"f**king fat wh**re jesus christ f**king die stupid sh*t"
>Pass by a guy texting on his cell phone
"braindead retard can't get off his phone for one second f**king hipster bitch f**k"
I've been doing this since as long as I can remember, and like I said it's not intentional. Does this happen to anyone else?

Well, I think everyone wishes death on any fatties they come across. That's just normal.

Pass by girl
"Damn another one is about to check me out... oh wait, she gave me boyfriend eyes... oh well."
Pass by girl
"damn she's checking me out, she thinks I'm hot."
Pass by dude
"I could take him... maybe."
Pass girl
"oh sh*t she looked at me."
Pass by dude
"Damn those are cool shoes, I'm f**king jealous."
All of my reactions are either jealous, competitive, friendly, or sexual. But I'm usually a pretty friendly guy, so even if I might think these things, I still like to talk and meet new people, so I'm not as shallow as my thoughts make me sound.

Pass by girl
"Damn another one is about to check me out... oh wait, she gave me boyfriend eyes... oh well."
Pass by girl
"damn she's checking me out, she thinks I'm hot."
Pass by dude
"I could take him... maybe."
Pass girl
"oh sh*t she looked at me."
Pass by dude
"Damn those are cool shoes, I'm f**king jealous."
All of my reactions are either jealous, competitive, friendly, or sexual. But I'm usually a pretty friendly guy, so even if I might think these things, I still like to talk and meet new people, so I'm not as shallow as my thoughts make me sound.

>Pass by dude
>"Damn those are cool shoes
Bad news, friend. You're gay.

Whenever I think something mean like that I always get worried about the possibility that that person could read my mind

When I pass by someone I try not to look at them at all, I try not to show any kinds of emotion.
But if I pass someone when I'm drunk or high then I don't care.
If I do look at someone I just think of big deal just another human being. Probably lives a same sh*t life like me...bla bla bla. Sometimes if I see girls that go with my fetish I pay extra attention to them. Other than that I don't give a sh*t about the person.

>Pass by scantily clad woman
F**king stupid wh**re I hope you get raped

>Pass by dude
>"Damn those are cool shoes
Bad news, friend. You're gay.

Worse news, you're a neckbeard.

Worse news, you're a neckbeard.

Joke's on you, that isn't news to me.

>Women.
Imagine how sexual relations would be.
>Men
Imagine myself as them.

>pass by a pretty fat girl
This is my fetish! :D

Wow that OP is bitter.
Need a hug bro?

either
>pass by someone
pass by someone
or
>pass by someone
'I hope they're not mocking me'

>getting angry about other people having friends to text

I think you're the one with the childish issues

>pass by a group of people
>they're whispering and laughing
>stay awake at night wondering if they were laughing at me

I don't think about people when I pass them during my commute to class. People are NPC's while I da BDP. F**k ya'll.

>getting angry about other people having friends to text

I think you're the one with the childish issues

Like I said, not voluntary. The thoughts just come to my head and I can't do much about it

>Pass by random human being
"Oh god, they looked at me. F**k, they probably hate me now. I bet they're gonna go meet some friends or something and tell them about me. Maybe my hair is messy or knotted, or I missed a spot shaving, or something's wrong with my clothes. F**k, this happens every time I leave the house. God dammit, I better turn back and go home before more people see me like this. Sh*t, now I have to go buy food at 7/11 later tonight when no one's on the street. Man, I'm such a failure. I should just kill myself already."
The worst part is, this is exactly what happens, all the time.

Like I said, not voluntary. The thoughts just come to my head and I can't do much about it

you can sit and reflect on it and why they come into your head. The mere act of thinking about your own thoughts and being at odds with your gut reaction can affect your gut reaction.
although at their core people don't change, they just gloss over their insecurities with some bravado and subliminal mental tricks,

>Pass by someone
'It's rude to stare right? I better look away. I hope they don't notice I've been looking forward before I passed them.'

I stare directly at them without blinking.
Feels good man, if I'm going to feel awkward no matter what I may as well creep people out

Sounds like you're developing a mental disorder, OP

I'm completely paranoid
"what the f**k? why did that person look at me?"
if I'm laughing (in my head) at someone and they look
"oh god damn it! Did I f**king smirk? DID I F**KING SMIRK?!"
looking at someones shirt and I like it and then notice they see me looking at them
"shiiiiiiiiit! just look down, just look down."

>walking down street
Woops don't step on that crack
Woah, watch the gum
Oh look, roadkill
Oh hey, people are looking at me.

I'm completely paranoid
"what the f**k? why did that person look at me?"
if I'm laughing (in my head) at someone and they look
"oh god damn it! Did I f**king smirk? DID I F**KING SMIRK?!"
looking at someones shirt and I like it and then notice they see me looking at them
"shiiiiiiiiit! just look down, just look down."

>"oh god damn it! Did I f**king smirk? DID I F**KING SMIRK?!"
Word, man. God forbid you look happy?

I hate the entire f**king world after reading Transmetropolitan. I work in a downtown ghetto, so that doesn't help.

Pass by girl
"Damn another one is about to check me out... oh wait, she gave me boyfriend eyes... oh well."
Pass by girl
"damn she's checking me out, she thinks I'm hot."
Pass by dude
"I could take him... maybe."
Pass girl
"oh sh*t she looked at me."
Pass by dude
"Damn those are cool shoes, I'm f**king jealous."
All of my reactions are either jealous, competitive, friendly, or sexual. But I'm usually a pretty friendly guy, so even if I might think these things, I still like to talk and meet new people, so I'm not as shallow as my thoughts make me sound.

None of those girls think you're hot, fa**ot.

anonymous, what are your thoughts when you pass by someone?
When I walk by someone I try to find something negative about them and then have an uncontrolled derogatory thought train.
Example:
>Pass by an overweight woman
"f**king fat wh**re jesus christ f**king die stupid sh*t"
>Pass by a guy texting on his cell phone
"braindead retard can't get off his phone for one second f**king hipster bitch f**k"
I've been doing this since as long as I can remember, and like I said it's not intentional. Does this happen to anyone else?

You just described my roommate in extreme detail.
getoutofmyhead

You just described my roommate in extreme detail.
getoutofmyhead

>he knows his roommate's thoughts
wat?

>someone walking behind me
'They're going to try and kill me, get back against a wall.."*
>pass by guy with girl
'F**k off and die'
>pass by slutty looking girl
'wh**re'
>pass by girl in bookstore
'Jesus your eyes look so empty'
*I do the same thing in the car. When a car is behind me for too long I think they're tailing me

>someone walking behind me
'They're going to try and kill me, get back against a wall.."*
>pass by guy with girl
'F**k off and die'
>pass by slutty looking girl
'wh**re'
>pass by girl in bookstore
'Jesus your eyes look so empty'
*I do the same thing in the car. When a car is behind me for too long I think they're tailing me

>>pass by girl in bookstore
>'Jesus your eyes look so empty'
Silly anon, bitches can't think

>he knows his roommate's thoughts
wat?

You thought mind-readers were a myth?

mostly, nothing.
When someone really fat or really thin passes by, or anyone with a... distinct characteristic, I just think "holy mother of god"
sometimes I actually say that. Not loud, but anyway.

>someone walking behind me
'They're going to try and kill me, get back against a wall.."*
>pass by guy with girl
'F**k off and die'
>pass by slutty looking girl
'wh**re'
>pass by girl in bookstore
'Jesus your eyes look so empty'
*I do the same thing in the car. When a car is behind me for too long I think they're tailing me

>pass by guy with girl
>'F**k off and die'
Totally guilty of this one. F**king third wheel syndrome.

You thought mind-readers were a myth?

They are a myth, and you are just trolling.
Hah, I read your mi-wait F**K

The only people that stand out to me are really fat people. Everyone else is just generic background NPCs. I'm really bad with face recognition and such.

>Pass by someone
>Wow, I wonder where they got their [whatever]!
>Pass by fatty
>Eughh.
>Pass by person who glanced at me
>Oh god, I hope they didn't just judge me
>Pass by Chav
>OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD

I like how everyone in this thread universally agrees that they are disgusted when walking by a fat person

> walk by someone dumb looking/who i just don't like the look of
f**king douchebag wow i hate that guy with his f**king [insert article of clothing here] and his gay ass douche walk
> walk by a fatty
no real anger at them about being a fatty, it's just a shame that nobody will ever love them
> walk by a couple
i judge them. like i decide which one's better looking, if it's an ugly couple i don't like it, and if the girl's hot and the guy is a plug (happens a lot at university) i silently rage
> walk by a girl
decide whether i'd hit that, and if not how drunk i'd have to be to hit that. if so, i see if she's checking me out or not.
> walk by a dude
consider whether i could take him in a fight, even though i haven't fought anyone since middle school
that and i critique the way people dress.

>f**king asians why are they so goddamn noisy jesus f**k they look like fa**ots
I'm asian

>some people trying to be cool
"lets f**k with their image and intimidate until they look away" "i win, f**k yea"

>Pass by random human being
"Oh god, they looked at me. F**k, they probably hate me now. I bet they're gonna go meet some friends or something and tell them about me. Maybe my hair is messy or knotted, or I missed a spot shaving, or something's wrong with my clothes. F**k, this happens every time I leave the house. God dammit, I better turn back and go home before more people see me like this. Sh*t, now I have to go buy food at 7/11 later tonight when no one's on the street. Man, I'm such a failure. I should just kill myself already."
The worst part is, this is exactly what happens, all the time.

dude i was exactly like you 1-2 years ago, now I'm having fun again when I go outside. You cannot know what they think, only what you think about yourself, is what you can think is what they think of you. You self image (ego) reflects on them. So work on that, and realise how that works and slowly you will get control over having your own thoughts get reflected.
2nd tip is that you can only use 100% of your brain, if u only use 60%, 40% of that is free for negative stuff like this to happen. Once you purposely start filling your mind the % that is free for negative stuff will shrink and become less intense, shorter in duration, you are also gonna be able to push those thoughts out. How you do this is by going zombie mode for a while. When these situations occur you just repeatedly tell yourself, im just looking at the ground, look at the ground, im walking past, walking past, im gonna make a corner here, im gonna go to the store, im going to the store, i pick up the basket, pick up the basket and so forth.
its a bit of a hassle but this has really worked for me. After a while you will improve yourself subconsiously, and only have to apply this once a while or in certain situations. Then at the end you will just be relaxed and the problem is solved, It takes a while tho so keep at it and dont dodge!
(i used to not leave my house, if i did it would take me an hour while dresses and with jacket on to step outside, only go to night stores/ small family businesses. avoid the bigger roads, get tears in my eyes when id make eye contact with people. be very nervous. so much i would respond clerks with the wrong answers like,have a nice day "yes" thanks for shopping here "you too" etc
hope this helps, it did for me, goodluck!

>Anyone
Apathy.

pleasedontnoticeme
pleasedontnoticeme
pleasedontnoticeme

For me it's more like
>>anyone
Are they attractive?
>yes
*stare*
>>no
Do they have a kid with them?
>no
Who gives a f**k?
>yes
Do they seem like a sh*tty parent?
>yes
*rage*
>no
who gives a f**k?

>some people trying to be cool
"lets f**k with their image and intimidate until they look away" "i win, f**k yea"

dude i was exactly like you 1-2 years ago, now I'm having fun again when I go outside. You cannot know what they think, only what you think about yourself, is what you can think is what they think of you. You self image (ego) reflects on them. So work on that, and realise how that works and slowly you will get control over having your own thoughts get reflected.
2nd tip is that you can only use 100% of your brain, if u only use 60%, 40% of that is free for negative stuff like this to happen. Once you purposely start filling your mind the % that is free for negative stuff will shrink and become less intense, shorter in duration, you are also gonna be able to push those thoughts out. How you do this is by going zombie mode for a while. When these situations occur you just repeatedly tell yourself, im just looking at the ground, look at the ground, im walking past, walking past, im gonna make a corner here, im gonna go to the store, im going to the store, i pick up the basket, pick up the basket and so forth.
its a bit of a hassle but this has really worked for me. After a while you will improve yourself subconsiously, and only have to apply this once a while or in certain situations. Then at the end you will just be relaxed and the problem is solved, It takes a while tho so keep at it and dont dodge!
(i used to not leave my house, if i did it would take me an hour while dresses and with jacket on to step outside, only go to night stores/ small family businesses. avoid the bigger roads, get tears in my eyes when id make eye contact with people. be very nervous. so much i would respond clerks with the wrong answers like,have a nice day "yes" thanks for shopping here "you too" etc
hope this helps, it did for me, goodluck!

This anon sounds like they've got the right idea. Everyone else here seems to want to be pissed off at people all the time. Thats a pretty sh*tty way to feel good about yourself.

This anon sounds like they've got the right idea. Everyone else here seems to want to be pissed off at people all the time. Thats a pretty sh*tty way to feel good about yourself.

let me respond to that nicely then.
i still do the same sh*t everyone in here does. looking down on people, raging, thinking they are f**king retarded, laughing.
but you are right about one thing, instead of always thinking like that about others its only in situations or when its myself that does something stupid. so yea
i do go out happy face, be nice to people, have a good time. if something stupid happens sure im gonna judge but i dont go out with the intend to do so anymore to make myself feel better anymore.
im already better so why should i? :P