Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Dealing with depersonalization and derealization disorder

I wanted to bring up the topic of depersonalization. Personally, I have had this since I was 16 years old. I believe it stemmed from extreme bullying and depression. In short, how the f**k do I get out of this condition. Everything seems hazy and my dreams are starting to become more real than real life.




That's what you get for being bullied, fa**ot.

there's only one solution and u know it

F**k OP, I've read up on it, think I have it too, never tought much of it though.

F**k OP, I've read up on it, think I have it too, never tought much of it though.

Yep I have it, keep adding to my list for slef putty.

F**k OP, I've read up on it, think I have it too, never tought much of it though.

I found out by watching the movie numb. The tragedy of this condition is once you can put a name on it you spend countless hours stressing about it which justs depersonalizes you even more.

I used to think about things like that before I found drugs. OP, I highly recommend opiates.


I found out by watching the movie numb. The tragedy of this condition is once you can put a name on it you spend countless hours stressing about it which justs depersonalizes you even more.

Yep, but I just try to ignore every tough and sit for hours not doing anything.

I used to think about things like that before I found drugs. OP, I highly recommend opiates.

I actually was thinking of experimenting with different drugs. Ritalin seemed to highten my senses. Im looking more for a perminant fix though. The whole "change your lifestyle" thing hasn't been working.

Has anyone gotten rid of this retched disease, and resumed their normal life?

I wanted to bring up the topic of depersonalization. Personally, I have had this since I was 16 years old. I believe it stemmed from extreme bullying and depression. In short, how the f**k do I get out of this condition. Everything seems hazy and my dreams are starting to become more real than real life.

Just go on living your life. Don't let this thing affect you and it will go away.

I had a head injury when I was 13, and developed derealization disorder.
It's somewhat similar to depersonalization. Sometimes in order to make things clearer - I open my eyes as wide as I can and inhale as much as I can. Things are still a bit hazy, but it makes things better.
This month has been one of my better months. I've been able to reach a sense of clarity a few times this month.


I actually was thinking of experimenting with different drugs. Ritalin seemed to highten my senses. Im looking more for a perminant fix though. The whole "change your lifestyle" thing hasn't been working.

Hallucinogens. Seriously, it may sound like a bad idea, but nothing gets you more in-touch with reality like being torn completely out of it for a few hours. I recommend a medium-sized dose (which will still knock a first-timer on their ass) of either 3 grams of shrooms or 2 hits of acid. I recommend acid over shrooms because it's more controllable.

I had a head injury when I was 13, and developed derealization disorder.
It's somewhat similar to depersonalization. Sometimes in order to make things clearer - I open my eyes as wide as I can and inhale as much as I can. Things are still a bit hazy, but it makes things better.
This month has been one of my better months. I've been able to reach a sense of clarity a few times this month.

I forgot to mention that at least when faced with a traumatic experience - you go into your hazy state and nothing bothers you. At least I do. My derealization is coupled with my ability to force unpleasant situations out of my mind. It's left gaping holes in my memory, though. Apparently I've gone to places and done things with my friends that I have no recollection of.
Sh*t sucks for the most part, and now I'm having a serious DR attack


Hallucinogens. Seriously, it may sound like a bad idea, but nothing gets you more in-touch with reality like being torn completely out of it for a few hours. I recommend a medium-sized dose (which will still knock a first-timer on their ass) of either 3 grams of shrooms or 2 hits of acid. I recommend acid over shrooms because it's more controllable.

Any tips on what i should do during the trip?


Any tips on what i should do during the trip?

>taking adviceice from anonymous.

http://strangerinthemirror.com/questionnaire.html
I'm just curious of your scores, anons.

Can't help you as I've never experienced anything like that, but perhaps you'd like to get addicted to pu**y? I hear it's tasty.

Your score of 44 falls in the range of Severe Depersonalization (25-75). I looked it up on wikipedia, and I have felt that odd vertigo sensation before, mostly when my step mom was talking to me, felt like I was detaching because I fkxing hated her.

I wanted to bring up the topic of depersonalization. Personally, I have had this since I was 16 years old. I believe it stemmed from extreme bullying and depression. In short, how the f**k do I get out of this condition. Everything seems hazy and my dreams are starting to become more real than real life.

thats beautiful dude. also good thing you noticed it started when you were a dumb kid, remove those words from your mind, they no longer hold sway over you.
illness. illness. disorder. illness. etc F**K IT

my brother has issues with this sort of thing, although his case is pretty weird. he's been evaluated by a neurologist and migraine specialist because some of his symptoms sketched his doctor out. depersonalization is definitely the main component of it, but he also has bizarre visual distortions, a feeling of being perpetually stoned (although he stopped smoking weed a long time before this started), extremely brief but intense headaches, seemingly clairvoyant experiences and a variety of other odd symptoms.
ironically, he's probably the most normal and functional person i know.
his case might be related to datura experimentation when he was a teenager (only one time). that's my theory, anyway, 'cause all his medical evaluations come up fine. on the other hand i did datura with him that day/night and tripped WAY harder but had no lasting aftereffects, other than an aversion to datura. so who knows.
another theory, proposed by the migraine specialist he saw, is that a certain area of his brain (i forget which) is not getting enough bloodflow. there's no proof from his testing for this, though -- pure speculation. the doctors are just confused as hell.

http://strangerinthemirror.com/questionnaire.html
I'm just curious of your scores, anons.

this test told me i have 'Severe Depersonalization' although i clearly don't have any degree of depersonalization. it doesn't seem to account for introverted space cadet types like me who walk away from the cash register without getting my change/purchase because i'm busy daydreaming about some random bullsh*t.
i did answer carefully, too.

http://strangerinthemirror.com/questionnaire.html
I'm just curious of your scores, anons.


this test told me i have 'Severe Depersonalization' although i clearly don't have any degree of depersonalization. it doesn't seem to account for introverted space cadet types like me who walk away from the cash register without getting my change/purchase because i'm busy daydreaming about some random bullsh*t.
i did answer carefully, too.

oh, and my score was 25. changed one answer to a vague question that i wasn't sure how to respond to properly and it came out 24 -- 'Mild Depersonalization', which also obviously doesn't apply to me. i don't have any symptoms of this sh*t.


this test told me i have 'Severe Depersonalization' although i clearly don't have any degree of depersonalization. it doesn't seem to account for introverted space cadet types like me who walk away from the cash register without getting my change/purchase because i'm busy daydreaming about some random bullsh*t.
i did answer carefully, too.

same here. i got a 36, though.
every once in a while i have "sh*t, i don't recognize my hands" moments that are kind of disturbing, but it doesn't interfere with my life so i've never thought of it as a problem.


this test told me i have 'Severe Depersonalization' although i clearly don't have any degree of depersonalization. it doesn't seem to account for introverted space cadet types like me who walk away from the cash register without getting my change/purchase because i'm busy daydreaming about some random bullsh*t.
i did answer carefully, too.

I WAS TRYING TO USE A CALCULATOR AND IT TOLD ME I SUCK AT MATH HELP. I THINK IT WANTS MY FAMILY DEAD, TOO. F**KF**KF**KF**KF

I used to suffer from this, i felt completely emotionally dead and it was like I was a spectator watching 'me' go about my daily life from a 3rd person perspective. Then I got major depression and that sucked me back into reality and how sh*t it was.

I've been diagnosed with dissociative disorder. I just live with it, its not so bad

its sometimes called an ego-death or disassoisative some people really want this to occur.
this also happens from extreme food& sleep deprivation as well as psychedelic overdoses, such as hippy-flipping.

its sometimes called an ego-death or disassoisative some people really want this to occur.
this also happens from extreme food& sleep deprivation as well as psychedelic overdoses, such as hippy-flipping.

The terms ego-death and enlightenment are interchangeable.

http://strangerinthemirror.com/questionnaire.html
I'm just curious of your scores, anons.
just in case
YOUR SCORE IS 50
Your score of 50 falls in the range of Severe Depersonalization (25-75).We recommend that you be evaluated by a professional who is trained in the administration of the full SCID-D interview. If your depersonalization has interfered with your relationships with friends, family or coworkers, or has affected your ability to work or has caused you distress, it is particularly important that you obtain a professional consultation.
Should an experienced clinician find that you have a dissociative disorder, you have a treatable illness with a very good prognosis for recovery. Your illness is widely shared by others who coped with trauma by using the self-protective defense of dissociation.
With proper treatment, in time you will no longer find it necessary to disconnect from yourself or your feelings. Eventually, as you grow strong enough to reconnect with your memories, feelings and behaviors and begin to accept them as your own, your depersonalization will be reduced and you will become a more integrated and psychologically healthy person
It goes with the fact that I don't care for this result

hey op, ive felt this way my whole life. when i was a little kid id always wonder why everything felt fake, i never reaally felt anything, and when i was gonna wake up. i assumed i was in a coma. i forgot about it for a little while and just lived with it, somehow. i guess that was only really for a year. but it got more noticeable. i never told anyone except when i was younger cause i didnt wanna sound crazy, and i hate people going HURR DURR I HAVE PSYCHO PROLLEM. interestingly enough, i read about the syndrome on anonymous. luckily i have a psychologist, imma see what can get done.
but ive never looked at it as a problem. although i am one of the laziest people i know. no one can ever really hurt me, and come to think of it im rather fearless, in a strange suicidal way. on the downside i rarely like any girls... sh*ts weird.

I got a 74!
Only one more point till I attain ego-death/enlightenment!
Wooooo!
One a side being able to look at yourself and your actions objectively is very important to being sane.
All those shrinks can suck mah' dick.

its sometimes called an ego-death or disassoisative some people really want this to occur.
this also happens from extreme food& sleep deprivation as well as psychedelic overdoses, such as hippy-flipping.

I've experienced depersonalization. It's not ego-death it's disturbing as hell and not enlightening. It feels like you're watching a movie of somebody doing things (i.e. it's kind of like being extremely stoned), and your thoughts feel like they're not your own either.


I've experienced depersonalization. It's not ego-death it's disturbing as hell and not enlightening. It feels like you're watching a movie of somebody doing things (i.e. it's kind of like being extremely stoned), and your thoughts feel like they're not your own either.

I don't see how it could be scary at all.
Realizing your consciousness and your body are not one in the same, nor are they necessarily tied to one another is a healthy epiphany to have.

YOUR SCORE IS 31
Your score of 31 falls in the range of Severe Depersonalization (25-75).We recommend that you be evaluated by a professional who is trained in the administration of the full SCID-D interview. If your depersonalization has interfered with your relationships with friends, family or coworkers, or has affected your ability to work or has caused you distress, it is particularly important that you obtain a professional consultation.
Should an experienced clinician find that you have a dissociative disorder, you have a treatable illness with a very good prognosis for recovery. Your illness is widely shared by others who coped with trauma by using the self-protective defense of dissociation.
With proper treatment, in time you will no longer find it necessary to disconnect from yourself or your feelings. Eventually, as you grow strong enough to reconnect with your memories, feelings and behaviors and begin to accept them as your own, your depersonalization will be reduced and you will become a more integrated and psychologically healthy person.

I get it, but I think it's more of a side effect from anxiety and mood swings. I feel as though my emotions are in control of me, and so sometimes I feel like my mind distances itself from the rest of me.

YOUR SCORE IS 31
Your score of 31 falls in the range of Severe Depersonalization (25-75).We recommend that you be evaluated by a professional who is trained in the administration of the full SCID-D interview. If your depersonalization has interfered with your relationships with friends, family or coworkers, or has affected your ability to work or has caused you distress, it is particularly important that you obtain a professional consultation.
Should an experienced clinician find that you have a dissociative disorder, you have a treatable illness with a very good prognosis for recovery. Your illness is widely shared by others who coped with trauma by using the self-protective defense of dissociation.
With proper treatment, in time you will no longer find it necessary to disconnect from yourself or your feelings. Eventually, as you grow strong enough to reconnect with your memories, feelings and behaviors and begin to accept them as your own, your depersonalization will be reduced and you will become a more integrated and psychologically healthy person.

GTFO normal f**.
No one cares about your c**t-pasted survey results.

Dig some holes, plant some seeds. Very personal, in your face, visceral and literally grounding work. DO IT.

The thing about disorders like these is that there's no switch to flick them off. There's not going to be some magical technique to rid yourself of it, you're just going to have to work at it for a long long long time. You have to want to be different with all of yourself, we're talking every last fiber. And you cannot do this if you think that there's going to be a simple cure for it.

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