Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Know anyone who has committed suicide?

Do you know anyone who's committed suicide?
Have you ever attempted to kill yourself?




My nephew commited suicide about 5 years ago. Cocaine really messed him up.
I thought about it myself, but never did a serious attempt.

A girl I knew in college. F**ked her a couple of time, but she was already on the track for a dead end. She moved to New York and was found dead in her apartment after an overdose of sleeping pills (she also apparently had quite a bit of cocaine in her system as well). Left a long note about how her father f**ked her for years. I don't know how I feel about it, except it sucks. That was about 6 years ago now.

If you are ever considering suicide just remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Whatever sh*t your going through can be gotten out of, you don't have to put your family and friend through the misery of mourning over you.

One of my biggest wishes and desires is to know someone personally who has committed suicide.
Next to that is this insatiable desire to convince someone to kill themselves.

Warning: tl;dr ahead.
In elementary school, I was really good friends with a girl named Allison. We got into a fight over something stupid towards the end of fourth grade, stopped talking for a while, and sort of grew apart.
But in the beginning of sixth grade, we were assigned to work together for a project in PE... it was something that went along with the Olympics, I dunno. I just remember that our group was Italy.
Allison and I were slowly becoming friends again, and things in general were going pretty well. The day the presentation was due, Allison wasn't there. I was called down to the office and asked what street I lived on by the police, but they wouldn't tell me the reason.
(TBC)

Warning: tl;dr ahead.
In elementary school, I was really good friends with a girl named Allison. We got into a fight over something stupid towards the end of fourth grade, stopped talking for a while, and sort of grew apart.
But in the beginning of sixth grade, we were assigned to work together for a project in PE... it was something that went along with the Olympics, I dunno. I just remember that our group was Italy.
Allison and I were slowly becoming friends again, and things in general were going pretty well. The day the presentation was due, Allison wasn't there. I was called down to the office and asked what street I lived on by the police, but they wouldn't tell me the reason.
(TBC)

My dad picked me up from school, and when we got to my neighborhood, there were a lot of really bright news lights... it was raining really hard, so that made them all the more blinding. He told me what had happened - Allison's dad went crazy and strangled his wife, beat Allison and her brother (who later died from the injuries), stuffed them in the trunk of his car, and then was later shot by the police. I had known that her dad was kind of "off," but I was only eleven at the time, and didn't know the severity of it... I still regret not noticing sooner, because I could have prevented it.
A few weeks later, she comes back to school, and acts entirely normal. I had planned out things to say to her, emails to send saying that I was sorry, but could never really find the right words. But on her first day back she met me at my locker with a few other friends, smiling and looking happy. I don't remember what I said.
People treated her pretty horribly, because we were in middle school and middle school kids can be monsters. She eventually just stopped coming to school because of the bullying, and moved out of town with her grandmother.
A few months later, I got a phone call. She was sobbing and crying and asking for help, but I couldn't really understand what she was saying. I heard some strange noises that I couldn't identify at the time, and then the line went silent.
The next day, I found out she had killed herself - took a bunch of sleeping pills and slit her wrists, at eleven years old.

Nah, I've never tried. I've done a lot of research into different methods though. The easiest seems to be dehydration.

It's only ever occurred to me once as a serious option. The fact that I was even having that thought seriously scared me though, and I've picked myself up since then

If you are ever considering suicide just remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Whatever sh*t your going through can be gotten out of, you don't have to put your family and friend through the misery of mourning over you.

So what if you are in prison for life with no parole? There is no hope of getting out alive.

I don't, no. I also have never attempted to do so. If I do it it will not be an attempt.

my brother hung himself a few weeks ago. crazy sh*t, none of us knew he was depressed.


So what if you are in prison for life with no parole? There is no hope of getting out alive.

What about mental health problems? I bet depression (in the true sense, not I feel blue today) is the leading cause of suicide and if medicine ain't helping your problem isn't temporary. Still suicide is f**king stupid, but understandable.

yes and yes
felt good man

I don't, no. I also have never attempted to do so. If I do it it will not be an attempt.

oh so edgy, man.

A guy I know tried to kill himself. Didn't end at all well.
He hung himself near his house, and his two best friends found him a couple of hours later. He was still alive, and now he's a vegetable in hospital.
He has a younger sister and a baby brother.

drugf** here, i've taken nearly every drug known to menkind at least once. stuck with heroin, managed to quit but then i was so sick of live in a sober state, i wanted to an hero with morphine, which i had saved up. took 1,8 grams on very little tolerance. woke up in psychatric station in hospital because the meds were retarded, and so am i.

ive tried to kill me with a bbq in my home (no kidding)


oh so edgy, man.

Facts, mere facts. I don't believe in gestures. That I told anyone was because I wanted to stop myself from doing it. Ironically reaching out for help makes me want to do it all the more.

Once I was on antibiotics for a skin problem and I wanted it to go away so I started taking an extra dose. After about a week of doing this my mood was lower than it was when I had severe depression. I laid awake one night thinking I had two options, suicide or getting myself sectioned. Was f**king scary. I had to throw away the pills the following morning because I was scared of what I'd do.
Also when I was depressed many years ago my niece tried overdosing on paracetamol. They wouldn't let me see her because I was considered vulnerable myself. I wasn't upset, I was f**king raging. She has a terrible relationship with her mum, so my mum has to deal with all her teenage angst sh*t and all I could think of is how she must have felt having to deal with her, my sorry ass and the loss of our father a few months earlier.

Had a mate in high school who did himself in a few months after we left high school.
Was going to do myself in last year, now I lift weights and swim and bike and am generally getting to awesome fitness levels.

My uncle killed himself when i was about 8. He was clinically depressed. I never really knew him so it's a bit hard to miss him. Every now and then my grandparents make reference to him and i completely blank out on who they are talking about.

An anon I think killed himself. kris his name was, he said he was gonna do it with helium.
I havn't seen him online in about a month, he was a good guy.
My mom would tell me she was gonna kill herself, she's been to the hospital for ODing on various things before.

i want to attempt to kill myself but not actually die so i can just have a break from school.
but i am very secretive and obviously if i did that, people and my parents would know about my 'problems.'

I remember when I was very young, around ten years old or so, one of my father's friends who I'd met a couple of times killed himself. I was told he hanged himself in the stairwell of his flat, and his mother found him. I didn't really care at the time, and now I think back about it, it's pretty obvious it was a result of a drug addiction. Which just makes me think it was a shame, he was always nice to me and my brother.

I dont tell anybody about it, not even family, though I think about it every day.
I never wanted to tell people because I thought if I do that them I'm a f**/girl/wimp whatever.
I always try to talk with and help in anyway I can, other guys I see in my situation, though I dont tell them of mine.
I feel so ashamed of my past, so incredibly ashamed, I just want to die.

I'm a diabetic. When I was 14 I stopped taking my insulin with the intent of killing myself. I was taken to the hospital and when I had recovered the doctors sent me to the psych ward. Even though it was probably the worst place ever to connect with someone, I found a girl I liked who liked me back. After leaving the ward, I moved a few states away, but this girl and I kept in contact. But somewhere along the way, we lost it. A couple years later, I get this random letter from her mom. She overdosed on her medications.

I remember a kid who killed himself over losing an iPod.

i want to attempt to kill myself but not actually die so i can just have a break from school.
but i am very secretive and obviously if i did that, people and my parents would know about my 'problems.'

You are me. I have been plotting a way to get away from everything without actually dying for more than a year. I developed some kind of small-scale eating disorder over the summer, I didn't eat anything for a month, thinking I would get so thin that I'd have to be hospitalized.

i want to attempt to kill myself but not actually die so i can just have a break from school.
but i am very secretive and obviously if i did that, people and my parents would know about my 'problems.'

>attempt to kill yourself
>not to die
>to skip school
>scared of family
Please, grow at least a hair on your nut before you start posting on sites meant for people who are older than 12.

A girl I knew in college. F**ked her a couple of time, but she was already on the track for a dead end. She moved to New York and was found dead in her apartment after an overdose of sleeping pills (she also apparently had quite a bit of cocaine in her system as well). Left a long note about how her father f**ked her for years. I don't know how I feel about it, except it sucks. That was about 6 years ago now.

You sure she wasnt just wanting to trip balls off dph with a combo of cocaine?
Well that is a deadly combo, I bet her heart asploded cause even caffeine and dph can cause tackycardia or however you spell it. Or arrythmia, not sure, but it speeds your heart the f**k up.

Did you know, that only 5% of suicide attempts in USA are successful. F**king miserable emos just can't do it right.
Posers!

Tried to commit suicide right before I graduated high school.
Backstage after a school event, I cut my arms and then tried to slice myself across the neck with corn chips that were being served to the cast backstage.
When that didn't work out I went backstage and tried hanging myself.
A fellow cast member caught me at it and it's hurt my reputation ever since.
That said, I'll still sometimes get drunk and grab a kitchen knife to whip myself across the back and sides with if I'm really depressed or going through one of my emotional breakdowns and laughing fits.

I will only ever kill myself if the alternative means living defeated and in disgrace.

Tried to commit suicide right before I graduated high school.
Backstage after a school event, I cut my arms and then tried to slice myself across the neck with corn chips that were being served to the cast backstage.
When that didn't work out I went backstage and tried hanging myself.
A fellow cast member caught me at it and it's hurt my reputation ever since.
That said, I'll still sometimes get drunk and grab a kitchen knife to whip myself across the back and sides with if I'm really depressed or going through one of my emotional breakdowns and laughing fits.

....you tried killing yourself.....with a corn chip?
dude...

Tried to commit suicide right before I graduated high school.
Backstage after a school event, I cut my arms and then tried to slice myself across the neck with corn chips that were being served to the cast backstage.
When that didn't work out I went backstage and tried hanging myself.
A fellow cast member caught me at it and it's hurt my reputation ever since.
That said, I'll still sometimes get drunk and grab a kitchen knife to whip myself across the back and sides with if I'm really depressed or going through one of my emotional breakdowns and laughing fits.

Pretty dumb. You need to plan it properly. You don't just do it on impulse, it makes it look like you just want attention especially with dumb methods and where people can find you. If you're gonna do it, do it the first try.

Someone in the year below me at school took a nap on a railway track
I have periods where i just cant be bothered anymore, but never get round to coming up with a good plan.
It would have to be something bloody, not entirely quick, but lethal

My dentist just shot himself, his wife left him. I cant imaging him doing it, I think he would just pu**y out.

I'm depressed enough to do it these days but my depression is making me too lazy to even try

My sister has tried to commit suicide more times than I can count.
Hanging, overdosing, jumping off a pier into freezing water, jumping out in front of a car.
You name it, she has done it.

I've been severely depressed but even in my darkest hours I've managed to keep some sense and logic in my head.

Someone in the year below me at school took a nap on a railway track
I have periods where i just cant be bothered anymore, but never get round to coming up with a good plan.
It would have to be something bloody, not entirely quick, but lethal

Starvation or dehydration would probably be the easiest methods. As long as you have the willpower you don't have to do nothing at all.

Pity none of your attempts was successful.
I would honestly love to see some of the lesser specimens culled out from the human gene pool. That means you.

CORNCHIPF**!!!!!

All these people with terrible lives and drug addictions had good reasons to want to end their lives. I would want to hug those people and tell them everything will be okay.
If your life is f**king normal and you're just feeling a little "down", get over it. I would never hug you.

In high school, a guy from my class hanged himself because he was being bullied by this Turkish scum.
Never attempted because I'm a) too pu**y to do it and b) don't want to hurt my mom by killing myself

Pity none of your attempts was successful.
I would honestly love to see some of the lesser specimens culled out from the human gene pool. That means you.

If you are that disappointed, kill yourself


Pretty dumb. You need to plan it properly. You don't just do it on impulse, it makes it look like you just want attention especially with dumb methods and where people can find you. If you're gonna do it, do it the first try.

Yeah, I'd just been officially turned down by a girl I'd been obsessed with for a year and a half, so I wasn't exactly thinking right.


If you are that disappointed, kill yourself

No, because I am not among the weaker specimens of humanity who should be advised to do such a thing, and I hope to live to see the day when those weaker specimens are eliminated for the sake of the continued legacy and survival of the human race.

In high school, a guy from my class hanged himself because he was being bullied by this Turkish scum.
Never attempted because I'm a) too pu**y to do it and b) don't want to hurt my mom by killing myself

Who gives a sh*t about your mommy's feelings, mommy's boy

All these people with terrible lives and drug addictions had good reasons to want to end their lives. I would want to hug those people and tell them everything will be okay.
If your life is f**king normal and you're just feeling a little "down", get over it. I would never hug you.

>wants to hug people with serious problems and drug addictions
If you actually want to hug those people I'll bet you want to f**k them too, you sick homeless starving junkie fetishist.

Pity none of your attempts was successful.
I would honestly love to see some of the lesser specimens culled out from the human gene pool. That means you.

You post on web, you are already unfit for breeding.
Besides, your internet badassery is contrived and lame, I'm guessing your age is somewhere between 13 and 17 and your favourite game is MW2.

A friend of me took his own life a year ago.. and still I can't understand, why? He had friends, and acted like a perfect normal guy, but still he ended his own life... it was a beautiful funeral =/

A friend of me took his own life a year ago.. and still I can't understand, why? He had friends, and acted like a perfect normal guy, but still he ended his own life... it was a beautiful funeral =/

he'd be one of those "happy suicides" where they dont want to talk about their problems for various reasons
one is because of sad, e-chest beating, emotional vulture, human scum like this

No, because I am not among the weaker specimens of humanity who should be advised to do such a thing, and I hope to live to see the day when those weaker specimens are eliminated for the sake of the continued legacy and survival of the human race.

Pity none of your attempts was successful.
I would honestly love to see some of the lesser specimens culled out from the human gene pool. That means you.

but they can also have perhaps a chemical imbalance or some other thing troubling them and they just dont want to talk about it
sad really

I was about to, but the internet stopped me.


You post on web, you are already unfit for breeding.
Besides, your internet badassery is contrived and lame, I'm guessing your age is somewhere between 13 and 17 and your favourite game is MW2.

Twenty. Working in an internship for a publishing company. You know what that means? I'm working my way up into a position where I will be able to control what does and doesn't go into print. I'm doing grunt work right now, but you know why? So I have a clear, straight path to a position where I control what people think.
Modern Warfare 2? No, sorry, I'm not a fan of making war and violence into some contrived form of entertainment.


Twenty. Working in an internship for a publishing company. You know what that means? I'm working my way up into a position where I will be able to control what does and doesn't go into print. I'm doing grunt work right now, but you know why? So I have a clear, straight path to a position where I control what people think.
Modern Warfare 2? No, sorry, I'm not a fan of making war and violence into some contrived form of entertainment.

Yay for you, hopefully you can do well, beating up on suicidal is preety weak and so are you by extension, picking the easiest target to put down so you feel better, how low.
>So I have a clear, straight path to a position where I control what people think.
If you want to get serious power with that, you have picked the wrong path as you should work in politics.
Otherwise you'll just influence opinons on video games/cars/cooking tips/fishing spots.

I attempted suicide about a year. Took about 20 pain killers. Didn't end up in the hospital or anything, but I got horribly sick for the night and was throwing up every 15 minutes.
I've thought about committing suicide a lot this semester. I've changed though. I went to the doctor and I'm on medication now, for anxiety mostly. I've also started a new diet, consisting mostly of veggies and eating healthier. I feel a lot better now and happier. I also watch this guys videos a lot: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RcYv5x6gZTA - very inspiring. It also makes me feel very selfish for thinking that way since so many people don't even have half the chances I do in life and some are dying from cancer who have families.


>attempt to kill yourself
>not to die
>to skip school
>scared of family
Please, grow at least a hair on your nut before you start posting on sites meant for people who are older than 12.

i know lots of people try to kill themselves for attention and make plans so they'll be found. am i really that weird for wanting attention? i know i'd never do it, because i'd be embarrassed by the attention, but i think it would be nice.
and i wouldn't want my family to find out because it would make them feel bad. =/ not because i'm 'scared' of them.

My grandfather killed himself when I was about 8 years old. I've only known about for about 2-3 years (when I was around 20) now, because my parents didn't want to tell me when I was so young. He walked into a pond with stones in his pockets and drowned himself. It's extra sad because I remember him as a very sweet and caring man.
Now, I can have very low points, but suicide thankfully has never been a serious option for me. I'm trying to get better.

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